Scales of Injustice

Week 2 Weigh-In: -1.4 lb

Total Loss: -7.6 lb

seriously??? really???? i followed south beach phase one sooooo good....and one stinking poound??? ok....i can force myself to be happy....

Hello Week 3!!! Bon Jour Phase 2!!! i thought you'd NEVER get here!!

today's menu included apples and grapefruit and sweet potato!!!! ooooh-lah-la!

Life's BIG Questions

should a lane bryant shopper own roller skates? we are about to find out. i bought these puppies on ebay for a screamin' deal!

they are at my house this minute waiting for me to try them on. the anticipation mounts. it's a great and fun way to get in a workout, huh?






speaking of great work outs, i have been doing something that has seriously been giving me some monster guns!








i have been working at a stable! yup!!!! a horse stable! how cool am i???? and guess what im doing to get these major muscles?



yeah......i didnt say it was glamorous....








but i get to see this










even though i have to shovel this.....










its a great opportunity to learn about horses and be in a barn. things i could never do otherwise. for my one month reward i am buying myself a horseback riding lesson....which brings us back to my first question.....

should a lane bryant shopper be on a horse?

we are about to find out!!!

Week on the Beach

i decided to do the south beach diet. do i sound thrilled? i lost 6 lb week 1. terrific. yeah, sure. im not hungry. but i feel like i have zero energy....in a fog. is this carb withdrawal? i just dont know if this is the right diet for me.

there's just something that feels deeply wrong about being a diet and not being able to eat fruit. i dont care WHAT phase you're in.

i always come back to this dilemma. what plan do i follow?????? i dont know.

i heard about this diet called "the 17 day diet".....seems kinda cool. the book is pink. thats a plus.

speaking of pink, i got a cool new water bottle. its the best water bottle EVER.

Thirty Flirty and Thriving

new beginnings. ahhhhh.....beginnings are wonderful arent they? so many possibilities and hopes and dreams. we all believe we can do it in the beginning. it's all so clear and simple and obvious. we know what we want and how to get there. it's all rainbows and lolly pops...

til you get smacked in the face with the middle. the middle stinks. the middle is hard. its full of questions like "what's so bad about shopping at lane bryant?" and "do i really NEED to go to the gym AGAIN?" the middle gets me every time.

well, every OTHER time that is. i have been at this again for a few months. i currently weighed in at 241.8 lb. and i think i got this. i think i can do this. and i have to do this...because there is something even more scary than the Middle lurking around the corner for me.....

this fall, i....willl.....beee......thirty. 3-ohhhh....30!

and i am determined to be thirty, flirty and THRIVING. i want to lose 30 lb by my 30th birthday! talk about the best present EVER! i dont even celebrate birthdays, but i would put on my party shoes for THAT!

5 Years

Happy anniversary to me! I have been married to my best friend for FIVE years today! It’s hard to believe that it’s been five years already. The time certainly has flown by! “I don’t know how I’m ever going to love him more…but I’ve said that before.”

Anyways. Remember a while ago I was wondering how long I could keep up this “healthy lifestyle” thing? Well. Now I know. The answer to that is “until about 2 weeks ago.” I just don’t wanna! How dumb am I? What do I think I am dealing with here? What makes me think this is optional? Here’s how bad it is. I have stood up my flaky workout buddy. I have stood HER up. Yesterday we were supposed to go to the gym in the morning. I slept in. Didn’t even call to cancel. When I didn’t answer her texts (because I was SLEEPING), she came to my house to pick me up. And I didn’t hear the doorbell for a long time. And then when she was like, “Do you want me to wait while you get changed?” I said, “No. I don’t wanna.” What. A. Loser. What am I thinking??

I need to get back on track. Get my game face on. Just flippin’ do this already.

See SG Run

So far I have done my “journey-to-jog-one-mile training” a grand total four times. That means I have done 80 minutes of my training. And jogged a total of 16 minutes of those minutes (a minute at a time). Yes. I have been running and NOTHING has been chasing me. I am growing as an athlete!

Being able to run a mile is so important to me. Why? I think there are a lot of real life situations where a person’s well-being really could depend on their being able to RUN AWAY. Could happen.

Also, running is so much more FUN than walking. It just is. Well, not for ME of course. For me it stinks. But if I were someone who could run longer than 60 seconds, it would be fun.

It’s also good for you. It burns so many calories. And studies by Stanford University show that running can improve bone and joint function. Running also has been shown to decrease blood pressure (*stupid stinking high blood pressure*), increase cardiovascular functioning, increase HDL (good cholesterol), improve aerobic endurance, increase muscle strength (especially lower body and core), and promote better sleep. All that sounds good to me.

But more than all that, I just want to DO it. I just want to be able to flippin’ DO it. Have you ever just really really wanted to be able to DO something?? Just to know that you could? Just to be able to say that you DID? Even if the only person you ever say it to is yourself?

I have been doing a lot of reading about running. So far, the most exciting thing I’ve read is this:

“TO BE A RUNNER DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO RUN FROM THE FIRST STEP OUT THE DOOR AND EVERY SUBSEQUENT STEP THEREAFTER.”

Wow. So, technically…I am a runner. I am a runner. As long as I keep up with my training and keep going and don’t GIVE up….I am a runner. Even if the day of my next 5K I can’t run a whole mile without stopping, if I can run a minute at a time, then I am still a runner.

In fact, walk/run programs are a really good option because they reduce your risk of injury and slowly help your body to adapt to running. Muscles, joints, connective tissue, and the diaphragm need to adapt to the more rigourous movement of running. THIS TAKES TIME.

Knowing that I am ALREADY a runner really makes this time go by a lot quicker.

Week 15 Weigh-In: +4 lb (244 lb)

no, im not crying. i stayed within my points for the week. and i did my jogging training and lifted weights. could i have done better with my eating? absolutely. could i have exercised more? of course. but i did ok.

ever since i was diagnosed with high blood pressure i have been very careful with my sodium intake. im supposed to get 1500-2300 mg a day of sodium. (stupid *flippin* high blood pressure!!!) to give you an idea of how difficult that is, 1 tsp of salt has 2300 mg of sodium. and there is sodium in food already.

but THAT is what i really messed up on this week. sodium. i lost count. when i weighed in this morning, my very cool scale told me that i gained FOUR stupid pounds. but it ALSO said that my body fat is 48%....which is horrible, i know. but it's always been over 50% in the past. last week was 50%. so i lost fat.

but that doesnt erase the side-effects of eating too much salt. my left hand/arm has been going numb and tingling a lot this week. which has not happened in months. scary.

becoming a healthy person is really really hard.