Friday, December 16, 2011

Mirror, Mirror On the Wall

i totally get why the evil queen in snow white (wow, that's a creepy picture) was so obsessed with this mirror. it always told the truth. and as far as i can tell, a mirror that only tells the truth is as much a fairy tale as prince charmings and castles in clouds.

last year i lost 25 lb and went from 265 to 240. and i thought i was smokin' hot. i bought a bunch of heels and pencil skirts and wore pretty, brightly colored dresses. i put on make up and curled my hair. i was 240 and loving every minute of it.

right now im 239. and i feel frumpy and fat and clumsy. i seek out blanket-like clothing that is comfy and cozy and good to hide in. why is this? i am the same size if not a little smaller. yet the way i see myself is totally different. my mirror is seriously playing tricks on me! and im not the only one.

i read blogs all the time where gorgeous girls have regained SOME of the weight they once lost. and they lament the horrors of being at a weight that they once were overjoyed to see on the scale. i get it. i really do. i have been there and its awful. you can literally watch your hard work take a nose dive out the window.

i get that aspect of it. but its the self image part of it that blows my mind. why is it that when we have lost 30 lb to get down to 200 we think we have rockin bods and are full of confidence... but if we have regained some weight to get to 200 we think we are bean bag chairs???

in my case i didnt regain any weight.. i had to lose a little to get here... but i guess i have been here for too long. my mirror decided to start lying again... or decided to start telling the truth... who knows.

i need to check ebay for one of those magic, truth telling mirrors!


Ronnie said...

I guess I never really thought of it that way, but you have an excellent point. I'll try to remember this in the future!

Great post. :)

Monicalatour said...

It's Kinda Ironic you right this post, Iv been debating righting somthing similar the last few days.. I agree about the Mirror, Some days i look in the Mirror and I really see my weight Loss, Some days i look in the mirror and im like "ARGH" i have so much more to go.. Its Kinda crazy.. I Also Sometimes feel like even tho i'v lost nearly 35 Pounds Total, Some days i feel like I was heavier then iv ever been, Some days i feel like im lighter then a feather lol Its crazy journey it really is!

Glad to see im not the only one to feel that way!

Maren said...

Yeah, I know that feeling. I feel so fit at the gym, like I'm going somewhere. And then I come home and my hallway mirror nearly screams "HELLO FATTY!!". Sigh!

oh_mg said...

I was just thinking about this this morning, to tell the truth - I've been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds for months, and that the numbers felt great on the way down but now I just see failure when I step on the scale. I need to focus on positives and the self-lovin', that's for sure! ♥ Keep up the good work!

Anonymous said...

one of the reasons i want to lose weight for is to have a mirror in my room.
last time i had a mirror was 7 years ago, i couldn't stand the way i look in the mirror, i hated and still hate the reflection.

so i am saving my self those feeling, and counting on the scale, but i think i should start taking some photos of my body.